I'm expecting my first couchsurfer to arrive tomorrow! How exciting. In case you haven't heard about couchsurfing.org, it's an online network of people from all over the world who are up for meeting/ hosting travellers to their cities! I plan to couchsurf the larger part (if not all) of my Eurotrip 1, Summer 09. I have only settled my accomodation in Bucharest, and 2 nights in Malta so far. Not the greatest. Will have to keep emailing.

I got Edgar hooked onto it too! I am now his only friend on couchsurfing (CS) hahahahhahaa... He's going to see if he can email some people to meet up/ crash at their place.

Also, I made pasta (at 11pm) for my lunch tomorrow. Please be impressed.

One question: What is the deal with the WORDPRESS craze?!

One more question: How do you respond to the question "Do you think your ex is gay?"

On one hand, there is his pride to consider. And it is something I would like to keep intact in all its straight man glory. On the other hand, there is MY pride to consider. While anyone with any sense can see that just because this rumor/speculation/gossip sprouted after we broke up, does not mean one thing led to another. Correlation does not equate causation, as my Psychology professor used to chant. BUT I CAN ASSURE YOU some idiot will say "Omg Max, you made him turn gay." The insinuation is of course that I am so foul a sample of a female that he was completely turned off women after me.

In the ideal world, if he REALLY turned gay (I really can't tell you since I haven't talked to him in ages), I would be telling him about my boy troubles and meeting for coffee. I'm glad I met him before then. He was a good boyfriend... It's unfortunate the fire died down for me.

In the theme of gay men, and as a token of my undying affection for them, here is Lily Allen:

My New Cat!!

 

 

 

 

So I adopted a friend's cat after she graduated. His name is Murphy. He is a rascal, but too adorable to remain angry with ever... I am also allergic to him, which means he sleeps in the living room... And I have started taking allergy-relieving pills every other day...

My senior returns to the US after 1 year for grad school, which is perfect since I graduate next year. He shall be returned to his rightful owner then! Hopefully I don't grow tooooo attached to this furball. Aw.

Quite a pain to have to take care of something alive though.

It's also hard to type when he's sleeping on your lap and using your arm as a pillow...

Sitting in the frigid concert hall in Humanities at 8 am in the morning for my Rock and Roll of America class. Nothing like Little Richard yelling Good Golly Miss Molly at you in the morning to start your day :) I grew up listening to Tutti Frutti and Jenny, Jenny. Hearing these songs on a lonely rainy day like today brings me back home. Like a hot cup of Milo :)

So apparently RnR (Rock and Roll) started from the Blues. I need to listen to more Blues. I've lost touch with such music. I used to listen to Big Band, Blues, Jazz, Swing... and RnR (which now we know, is really Blues, just with a different beat). Now all I listen to is Pop and Dance/Techno. Time to switch it up. I just asked my teacher for a Louis Jordan album... Here he is anyway, for a sampling:

Everyone's suddenly getting new blogs and updating with everyday mundan-ities. (I love making up nouns.)

I'm excited to be updated. Haha. I am thankful for interesting friends, especially now when I feel so physically distanced from all of them. Plus, school's out, so the campus is pretty empty. I spend my free time with my Singaporean substitutes for my friends from home, and I can't help but feel that it's not quite the same. I don't think I will ever see them as friends the way I see my friends from home. You guys are just irreplaceable. Aw.

As I plan for my Europe trip this Summer, I constantly feel like the world is too big for me. Kinda like when someone presents you with a ginormoushumongousenormouslicious birthday cake (I also love making up adjectives) and you're like 'OMG I WANNA EAT YOU BUT WHERE SHOULD I START?! EVERYTHING LOOKS SO YUMMY!' And the thing about this birthday cake is it's very expensive to change where you start eating from. So if I start eating the rosebuds (lets assume there are rosebuds) then halfway around I realise there are chocolate truffles as well (also assumed) I can't just hop over to eat chocolate truffles. I have to pay 100 euros to change my route... of chomping.

WOW that was a really weird analogy. But I hope you get my point - the world is a present to me (and the rest of you too, I suppose) and I'm just going to have to take my time to enjoy it.

I've always been the sort to rip open the wrapper though. :S

Why do we always wonder about the ones that got away?

It's like they exist so that we're never happy with what we have.

Damn you all.

Sometimes I worry I don't live up to expectations.

Then I worry if I have the right expectations. If I have MY expectations, or are they just assumed from someone else? Someone who doesn't necessarily know what's best for me. Where am I picking up all these random expectations? Mom? My friends? The Company? SOCIETY? Are they right?

Am I pushing myself hard enough? Ah, finals week. Such a wonderful time.

We all do it - laugh off our shortcomings. But sometimes, it's really just a cry for attention. Boohoo.

Time to keep pushing! The end is NIGH, my friends! ONWARDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(What I really mean to say is LAST FINAL TOMORROW, BITCHES, HEEEEELLL YEEEEAAAA)

I should be studying. 2 midterms on Monday; 1 final on Tuesday. Then I'm done hohoho celebration time come onnnnn!

Anyway, was sidetracking from studying before the blogging. At the site to pick classes for the Summer/ Fall. Many of the classes I wanted to take in the Summer are full. Damn it. Things are complicated by the fact that I have to submit an approval form to the Company if I take Summer classes (since they cost extra). I already am approved for 2 classes, one of which I am considering dropping.

Last week the Company sent me an email:

Your request has been approved.
You are not allowed to change or drop these classes.
You are to submit transcripts of your classes upon completion.

There goes my hope of changing classes. I might plead non-guilty by virtue of the fact that the class is full. Hence I have to change. This is true though, so technically I should do that. But my back-up plan has to be solid first - I plan to take lab for credit! While getting paid. So I have to discuss this with my professor first...

There is too much scheming involved. I just want to take a friggin class for my Humanities requirement, damn it.

Where's a lucky break when you need one?

3rd fight of the relationship.

our fights are all really wimpy. they're more like discussions where we're both really disagreeable. we're just such non-aggressive people we make for such unsatisfactory arguments.

i know he hates it when i get emo/angry with him, and he get angry with it. but we both try not to be angry with each other.

we're so weird.

i hope everything works out fine on tues. i should stop being mad by tomorrow morning. i think he stopped being mad about 20 mins ago.

What a gorgeous day out today. The perfect day for a tea party, organized by Global Connections (of course). The sun was out, perfect cloudless brilliant blue sky, marred only by the occasional (chilly) breeze. Whatever, I still was able to wear my summer dress which made me very, very happy :D It was very quaint - each table had tea from a different country, and there was scones, fruits and carrot cake (the angmoh kind). White tea cups, white plates, white table cloths, white tentage... It was nice to feel all proper and girly. Heehee.

Had to study for my French exam today though :( Tried to make myself feel better by studying 'outside' (i.e. out of the house, but still indoors i.e. at a cafe nearby) Worked somewhat I guess. Although I really need to stop spending money unnecessarily. I'm over-budget for April (after going over budget for March :/) after buying my tickets to London/ Malta/ Italy. Hoping to make back that money by working for my prof over summer.

Had the Seniors Night dinner/ celebrations for the Singaporeans last night. It was pretty fun, and I got to hang out with the Singaporeans that I don't usually hang out with. Somewhat sad to see them go. Even though we're not close, there's definitely a bond. And gatherings won't be the same without them, just because they're such a large batch. 不会那么热闹了。。。 :(

Today was a day of mild internal turmoil as well. I've been stressing out about what to do for HIS birthday, and today when I ask him if he's free he says he might go to Milwaukee. Well, that wasn't what made me annoyed. What was annoying was the WAY he said it. He made it seem like he'd rather go with his friends than spend it with me. After so long, I'm still not sure how he feels about me. He doesn't seem very enthusiastic when it comes to spending time with me. Yet he always tells me otherwise, albeit in a not-that-enthusiastic voice.

I think the thing that bothers me more is the fact that I feel like I'm losing my enthusiasm for this as well. The honeymoon period is definitely ending, and I'm not sure if we're reaching the end of the line. The thing is, he likes spending time with his friends and by himself so much. I know for sure that on the list of important people, I'm probably around 6... If I even hit the Top 10. And well, I don't like that. It's a major love-buzz killer. Zzz -_-''

Lucy tells me that if I think that it's going to end, it will end for sure.

I think that he told me that a little too late.

Drunk post alert.

My favourite part of the night is definitely the walk home. That's the time when the most honest and ridiculous comments about life and love turn up.

It was about 9C outside. We walked fast.

The conversation was good though.

We learn to forget, either because we're distracted or we force ourselves to. There's something strangely intriguing about the ones that got away. It's like a challenge, that I want to conquer. But I can't, because I have obligations to one that has been conquered.

Do I love him?

Going to 2 themed parties tonight 1. 'classy, but trashy' and 2. 90's. So I think to myself how can I look dressy in the 90s?

Solution: 'denim' stirrup leggings and a belted pastel orange striped shirt borrowed from Edgar (Just so that it's long enough to cover my ass. As Timmie very astutely pointed out - leggings are NOT pants.) Finish the look with a half pony to the side (only for the 90's party; hair to be sleek for the dressy party).

If only I had shoulder pads.

I actually have a white blazer but I think I may just tip the trashy scale with that.

Last night was a really fun night too, I should talk about that.

So last night this student org I'm in (Global Connections) had a Europop dance party!! It was reeaally fun!! I got to wear my shiny/trashy/wannabe-Ciara jersey top with my grey platform heels. The DJ played Kylian Mash (I like to think it was because I asked her to) and other awesome heart-thumping techno/dance Europop music. I love.




It was quite a scary night because there was potentially only 6 people who would be there all night - US. There's just something about this campus. People are so bloody lazy to come out to events, especially if they're not on the weekend. Luckily after about an hour a horde of people (about 20 I kid you not) all dressed like eurotrash came in! Yayy for over-enthusiastic and mildly awkward people!!!!

I might repeat Europop on a smaller scale for myself. It was like a small taste of clubbing back home... AHHHHH. I wish I had a party-conducive home, and a maid to clean up the mess after. Also wish I had the time and energy to organize parties.

Anyway finals are in 2 weeks. I can't believe I'm almost done with the semester! Time has officially broken the sound barrier. I can't wait for the summer... Even though it doesn't feel like it (it's still about 15C outside) it's going to be such a welcome break. All I have to do is go to one class, and work at the lab. I'll probably have homework and all, but at least I won't let my brain rot... Like the vegetables in my fridge :\

Then in June, I'm going to London/Malta/Italy to meet up with Smrits and Lucyboy!!! AHHHHHH I CAN'T WAITTTTTTT I am going to be absolutely broke after this, but I hope it's worth it. I'm always excited to go someplace I've never been before. Then again, there's so many places I've never been to. I'm also excited because I'm going to couch surf in Malta. I've never couch surfed before so this should be really exciting. I'm not doing it alone though, I have more sense than that. So fret not my dears, I shall be safe (and try to blog frequently.)

Anyway, Ness baked pineapple tarts. I can smell them from here. Time to go outside and sample some :D It's so awesome to have a Martha Stewart at home.