oh my gosh.
i am so full.
i am so full i feel like i'll remain like this forever.
i am so full i feel like i might puke. but not quite. it's like a rubbish bin that's filled... but not quite, such that it's just not overflowing.
i love cny. :)

wah i'm damn gross la. slap slap slap.

hoho i'm blogging coz i'm stuck at home with relatives i see once a year that i cannot really relate to. i can't relate to my relatives. woah that's funny max! hoho. for the record they are all nice people, i'm just a really lousy conversationalist. was practically begging debs and manda to come over tonight so that i wouldn't be bored out of my mind... dreu stopped by for a while to have dinner before heading out to meet his friends for drinks. which is something new.

max: Since when did your friends go out drinking?
dreu: Since I asked them to.

they're the really good boy types... not that that's bad! i'm dating a good boy type - except that i corrupted him. but it's all under parental supervision! we're allowed to go anywhere and drink anything as long as they know... except for smoking. i'm allergic to it anyway. like seriously, the smoke irritates my sinuses. haha how pathetic rit. i'm not even morally opposed to it, just nasal-ly. remember how afraid i was to get to know his friends in the beginning. almost completely sure that they didn't approve of me but hey i won them over with my charm and my wit :) it's not even like i'm damn paris hilton (she's hot) i'm so mandy moore. kinda. :) i've just been drunk once or twice... which is not unusual in a lifetime! i suppose it's good that people assume that my life is a lot more colourful than it really is... saves me the trouble of actually having to go get a life. hoho.

grey is my favourite colourr.. well actually, it's Red.

yea well anyway i can't wait to get a job. bumming around is horrible. i'm spending way more than i can afford to, seeing as my trip to china is still on credit with the Mom Bank with $1500 unpaid. me and my stupid mouth. let me independent, mom. it's MY trip, mom. it's not like YOU'RE going, mom. CB now i owe ppl money during cny! damn bad luck la... HA. I HOPE ALL YOU PEOPLE THAT OWE ME MONEY FEEL SCARED NOW! i don't even know who owes me money, but i'm pretty sure they exist...

well the good thing about not having a regular job (i tutor, if anyone needs help with MATH/SCI please leave a comment ^^ ) is that i have lotsa time to do what i want! but so far i'm still stuck at the think-about-what-you-want-to-do stage... the other day i cut up some of my skirts that were too long! attempting to do some diy damage to my clothes to spruce them up a little... seems i've lost a LITTTTLE bit of weight! so lotsa my old skirts are exposing more a/c than they should. AND i threw out all my baggy jeans. those things were hideous i don't know why i bought them. planning to convert some of them into shorts... :)

i used to be so uncomfortable with my figure. i still lie about my cup size sometimes coz i'm short. small people usually have small breasts. and they're so many skinny girls out there with their cute tiny asses, and their a cup breasts, and their 20 inch waistlines (ok 22)... what's a girl with an actual figure to do?! kidding. yea anw. i used to hide my body in baggy shirts and pants. and i'd say i dun give a $£^* about my figure. haha! i guess i thought that if i said i didn't care, i'd actually start thinking that too... but yea well most of the times i just kinda felt helpless hence the not-caring. wow i'm being so honest on my blog. it must be my complete and utter boredom.

i better go watch my mom play mahjong and gain some street cred in the family. before i become an emotional basket case :'( hoho.

ok i'm blogging again.

life now's pretty boring. which explains why i started blogging again. deleted all my old posts coz they were annoying me.

didn't like who i was when all i did was whine about my life. which isn't so bad really. right now i think i'm at the point in my life where i just can't be bothered to bitch about my life. it's also coz now i actually can do something about it. like, before i was stuck in school. now... i gotta decide what to do with my life!

welcome to the rest of your life. eeysh.

doesn't help when all your friends are working/busy studying and all you have is time to spend with your also very-free boyfriend who's just waiting to go to NS.

my manicure's rlly distracting. note to self: don't pick such a fucking sexy colour for your nails next time. i keep staring at them!

today dreu came over just to go print photos. we printed like a hundred from our trip to china. mostly of us eating haha. went to print them so that we can show it to our families during cny... we behave so married-ly ah. but as dee said, it's so creepy when ppl think about getting married! haha here's to faith in the institution of marriage! kidding. i'm sure it'd be nice to eventually get married, but right now i can't even imagine myself properly employed, much less married. and let's not even BEGIN thinking about children. the other day i went by NUS to visit matin in sch, coz sarah n i were supposed to crash his anatomy lab prac and see him poke and prod cadavers. i saw this baby that was preserved in formaldehyde OMG IT'S HUGE. how does it come out of your vagina, girl?!

anw tmr's council gathering. oh dear. i hope i don't get utterly depressed when the brilliant and over-achieving begin discussing their scholarship and uni offers... but you know. it's not that bad not being on a scholarship. at the end of the day, i'd prefer to be self-employed. anw we have to wait for the results to come back before applying to scholarship boards now, don't we, maxie dearie? yes we do! because you fucked up your prelims, you fucking genius. oh well. if only they'd let me in coz they thought i was pretty. :)